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“It hurts to let go. Sometimes it seems the harder you try to hold on to something or someone the more it wants to get away. You feel like some kind of criminal for having felt, for having wanted. For having wanted to be wanted. It confuses you, because you think that your feelings were wrong and it makes you feel so small because it’s so hard to keep it inside when you let it out and it doesn’t coma back. You’re left so alone that you can’t explain. Damn, there’s nothing like that, is there? I’ve been there and you have too. You’re nodding your head.”

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The Portable Henry Rollins “No matter how powerful and real your feelings may be for someone, if that person cannot fully and honestly return them and therefore actively love you back, these feelings mean nothing. Being lonely. Being alone. For many people,sucks. I get it, I get it, I get it. But still I have to say that yes, my belief is that being with somebody who makes you feel shitty or doesn’t honor the person you are is worse. Life is hard enough as it is without choosing someone difficult to share it with.You deserve to be with someone who is nice to you all the time.”  I am loving the thought of hating love... You like them. They like you. Texting twenty four seven. Saying good morning, saying goodnight. Then you start using cute little pet names. Then it gets to the awkward stage where you’re not sure exactly what you are. Then once you figure it out, it all goes down hill from there. All the excitement is gone. All the passion is wasted. Everything you once were has just faded to lies and bullshit. That’s why… I am starting to hate the process of falling in love. “Nobody wants to hear this but sometimes the person you want the most is the person you’re best without."    She's so LUCKY...... I don’t know what hurts more.. missing you, and knowing that I can’t be with you.. or knowing that you don’t even miss me. When I see you… I have a constant reminder that I can’t have you. When I talk to you… I know that I will never be able to hold you. And when I see you with her… I am reminded of how lucky she is. I hope she knows that. :)